Where oh Where Have I Been???

31 01 2011

I’ve been here.  I took a break because I really needed to be as stress free as possible during my first smoke free week.  It has obviously been the number one thing on my mind lately, and for good reason I suppose.  I am happy to report that today is my 7th smoke free day!  It’s pretty darn awesome too!  I really am enjoying being a non-smoker.  In just 7 days, I’m already noticing big changes!  My favorite part of my day right now is when I walk into my apartment and don’t smell cigarettes.  I haven’t experienced that since I don’t even know when!

I have also been busy making a pretty big decision.  Well I think it’s a big deal…I am going to try to do Dave Ramsey’s Total Money Makeover.  Tomorrow, I’ll be posting more about that as well as where I am at with my 2011 financial goals.

Don’t forget to head over to my Youtube page to see my video journal about quitting smoking.  I promise there is less complaining than you would think!  Thanks for hanging in there with me!  I’m back!


One month down…

26 01 2011

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I can’t believe it!  I’ve been blogging for over a month now! I made my first post on Christmas Eve.   My eyes opened up at 5am on the dot today and that was the first thought in my head.  How about that I wasn’t thinking about smoking. LOL  I just want to say thank you to everyone who has taken the time to critique, comment, and read my blog.  Even to those who just let me ramble on and on about it.   This is way more fun than I thought it was going to be.  Even my daughter was like “I didn’t think you’d keep it up.”  What she doesn’t know is that blogging isn’t hard, making a good blog is what is challenging!  I can’t wait to see how up to the challenge I am!

Approaching One Full Day Smoke Free…

25 01 2011

…And no one had to remind me not to make anyone else miserable!  I can’t believe that I made it.  It was hard and not hard at the same time.  I think the thing that most stands out to me is the amazing support that I received today from this blog to Youtube to my co-workers.  I am so grateful to everyone who took the time to give me an encouraging word or a nudge back in the right direction when I was struggling.

One thing that I noticed a lot today is that my brain is seriously trained to smoke at specific times.  I could literally set my watch by my cravings!  It really creeps me out to really think about it.  I am truly an addict and I will always be in recovery from cigarettes.

I have decided that I am going to do a video journal about quitting so that I don’t bog the blog down with quitting updates, but I will keep you all informed on here from time to time as I reach milestones as well.  This is my first entry.

Just so you know, I did call my job and pick up for tomorrow.  So I am in for 8 days in a row but it’s worth it to get paid to not smoke right?  LOL I’m just glad there is enough work for me to be able to pick up a shift.  As far as this evening is going, I must say that I haven’t been having that much difficulty.  I am about to fix dinner now so we’ll see how I feel afterward, but right now, I find myself on a pleasantly even keel.  I’m going to try to ride this one out till bedtime.  Wish me luck! LOL

I’m Quitting Smoking Today!

24 01 2011

Well I think that today is the day.  The day that I quit smoking!  Not sure how I feel about it really.  I was just thinking how I am tired of having to “save” money during my tight times to buy cigarettes.  Then last night I watched this video on YT about the total Money Makeover.

It honestly got me to thinking.  Seriously, if I quit smoking and stopped having lunch at work everyday, I could save $250 a month right there.  Then I started thinking about all the other ways I could add to the pot.  I could make a menu plan and stick to it.  That eliminates two people  going out to eat 3-5 nights a week.  I consider myself a recovering compulsive shopper.  Right now, I am NOT in shopping mode.  I even passed up the WEN sale on QVC this weekend!  LOL  Honestly though that was just because I was saving money for smokes this week…pathetic I know.

So anyway, I am really really nervous and not looking forward at all to the cravings and the mood swings.  I just have to remember that I can’t treat people like crap just because I’m having a nicotene fit!  Anyone who works with me, please feel to remind me of that tomorrow and the next few days in the most loving and caring way you can imagine (insert smile here.)

Now I gotta get into the gym and see what this 38-year old machine called my body can really do!  The nerd in me wishes I could have a full pulmonary function test done now and in 6 months from now to see how I have changed.  I just don’t want to have to pay for them! LOL

So I am reaching out to you all for support!  Please help me hold myself accountable.  I know I can do it, it’s just really hard in the beginning.

What Would YOU Do?

23 01 2011

My daughter and I were talking Friday night and she was telling me about a girl in her school who lost a lot of her hair to a perm.  It must have been really bad because she said she was starting to understand why I was so hardcore about hair.  While I was glad that she is starting to understand, I felt and still do feel so bad for this little girl.  To be 12/13 and have lost your hair to a relaxer must be a crushing blow to your self esteem.   I would also imagine that her mom would be devastated as well!  I would be if it were my daughter.   I’m on here again today to ask you what you would do.  I am going to have my daughter to ask the girl to ask her mom if I can provide them with some resources to improve the health of her hair as it grows back out.  If she (Mom) says yes, then I have a short list of things to suggest to her such as certain products, youtubes, hair forums and such.  If she says no, then I’ll mind my own business and keep it moving.  What would you suggest to help someone grow their hair back after a chemical burn?  Any advice and suggestions would be greatly appreciated.


UPDATE:  My daughter talked to the girl and the girl wasn’t interested.  Maybe one day, she’ll change her mind.  Maybe not.  Either way, it’s time for me to mind my own business now.  Thanks to all who shared opinions and advice!

Help Me With My Twist Out!!!

22 01 2011

I blame my curl pattern.  I can’t get a twist out to look good in my hair to save my life!  I spent two days recording and editing a video about my hair in a twist out and at the end, the style was an abysmal failure.  I posted it anyway because I want some advice.

Here’s my problem…whenever I twist up my hair in anything other than small twists, my hair just doesn’t take on that definition.  It just looks poofy and fluffy and it does the strangest things at the ends.  You’ll see in the part 2 video.  This is the same way wet, damp or dry I just can’t get my hair to take on another shape like that.  I truly think it is my curl pattern.  It just wants to do what it wants to do and doesn’t want to conform if it doesn’t have to.  I am a big fan of letting your hair tell you what it can and can’t do, and I hear my hair saying chunky twist outs and braid outs are not for you, but I am still wondering if there is some kind of compromise that we can come to.

I think I have one more idea that I’m gonna try today.  I’ll let you all know how it comes out.

Motivation Plain and Simple

18 01 2011

I have one last post to fix with the watermarks, but I had to stop and come in here and make this post.  I was feeling really frustrated yesterday.  To be perfectly honest, blogging everyday isn’t easy.  Not just because like everyone else I have a full time job, but because in the past my follow through was awful.  I was half tempted to slip back into old ways.On top of that, I’m a commitment-phobe! LOL I purchased my domain name but I won’t commit to hosting!  I know I’m a dork but whatever!

So I made a deal with myself.  Just change out your pictures.  Then you can tackle something else. Read the rest of this entry »