Talk About Reinvention!

2 05 2011

I hope I’m doing the right thing.  After a 8 year run at her K-12 school, my daughter has finally impressed upon me how much she wants to change schools.  I got the go ahead today from Minneapolis Public Schools that her school change request has been accepted and she has been placed!  I have to say that my daughter was very open to having lengthy respectful conversations and that was what sold me on the idea.  She clearly and objectively expressed her feelings to me without any drama or histrionics.  I was so impressed by her delivery I couldn’t say no!

It’s like the end of an era.  When she first started there, I couldn’t imagine that she wouldn’t graduate high school there.  I even decided not to leave the state after my mom died because I wanted her to have this one thing…  An uninterrupted elementary/middle/high school experience.  Especially since academically, she is thriving!  It’s the social stuff that is killing her.  I mean lets be honest, if you have social issues in 7th grade, those issues will follow you into high school at a K-12.

Honestly, she’s lucky to have this opportunity!  She gets to change schools before it’s to late to matter and she gets to remake herself or not as she pleases.  How many of us wished we could have done that at least once during puberty?!  Right now, I have her working on a vision board of what she hopes to get out of this experience and who she wants to become.  Her attitude has already changed so much it’s wierd! LOL She is already counting the days till she is outta there knowing that she can do anything for a little while!

My inner pessimist however, says that we should be careful what we ask for.  What if she goes to her new school only to find she likes it less than her old school?  I don’t want to scare her, but how do I let her know that she very well may not find what she’s looking for at this new school either.  Then what?

I know I’m putting the cart before the horse right now because this school year isn’t even over yet, but I just worry about my baby y’all!





This Little Piggy Went for a Walk…

30 04 2011

And her mother played with her camera!  Wait doesn’t that make me a sow????  Anyway, I decided to go for a walk because I still can’t figure this .COM to .ORG business out and I am still frustrated.  I got my kid to be my unwitting model and she is still a bit salty but I’m chalking that up to tween angst.  She is after all still grounded!  Please don’t ask! LOL

I came up with this in Photoscape and I must say that I am pretty pleased…

Photoscape is so darn fun.  Once I finished up this I thought about those scarves that I bought the other day at the Somali mall and the fact that I haven’t b/vlogged about it yet.  Thus the following .gif was born!  So yeah, all of the scarves you see here were purchased at Somali malls in Minneapolis.  I’m telling you these are the best deal in the TC!  $4 a piece and these babies are not small.  They are the big 40×40 size that the Somali women use with their hijab.

I hear you all saying that this has nothing to do with my blog, but really it does.  All this playing around in photoscape and playing around with my camera is going to help me bring you a better end product.  I promise I’m not giving up even if I don’t post as much as I did in the beginning.  I’m just getting my stuff together!  And with that, I’ll leave you with a money shot.

Link to instructions for the money shirt are aqui…





Back to the Gym…Again…

21 04 2011

UUUHGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!  You know why I wish I hadn’t stopped going to the gym?  Because it’s so flipping hard to start back up!!!  That is why I am sitting here typing this post 30 pounds heavier than I was in February.

Now before I start being too hard on myself, I did quit smoking and that is a large part of why the weight came back on so fast, but that really isn’t any excuse for me to not have been going to the gym for the last several months.

So I have to get my behind in gear now and get a plan going.  Now that I am working 12 hour shifts, two things are going to change.  The first is that I will NOT be working out on days that I work.  I will be walking the stairs again on a regular (yesterday, I did over 150 steps!) instead when I work.  The second, is that I will have a lot more time to go to the gym when I am not working because my days off are now in three to nine day stretches at a time!

I would like to say that I will be going to the gym everyday that I don’t work, but to be honest, I know that I won’t do that because on a day like today, my body already hurts from doing the stairs and 24 hours working in a 48 hour period.  So maybe I will take a day off after my work stretches and then get to the gym.

Also, I think that I am going to get to add a bit more variety into my workouts.  While I adore my personal trainer, I can’t expect that he be around for every calorie I burn, but at the same time, I love having company when I work out.   Therefore, I am going to pick up a ten class card for Core Power Yoga.  There are two very near where I live and I have co-workers who are more than willing to go with me.  I expect that it is going to be so challenging and that my co-workers are going to give me a lot of crap.  I also suspect that it is going to be a blast!

Another thing I am looking forward to is being a non-smoker while working out.  I have to admit that last year while I was always proud of myself for the strides that I made, I always felt like I was setting myself back by smoking.  That was why I would never take my cigarettes in my purse with my when I went to work out.  Now there are no more setbacks and I don’t have to feel all kind of ways because I came home from the gym and had a cigarette!

Wow just typing this post is actually getting me excited.  Like I said, my legs are killing me from all those steps yesterday, but I think I’ll go for a walk today.  Maybe I’ll even post some pics from the neighborhood….





Halfway Through Rehab…

7 02 2011

Otherwise known as 14 days smoke free!!!  I’m so happy and I am totally feeling like a non-smoker.  I felt so much like a non-smoker this afternoon, that I forgot it was cold outside because I hadn’t been outside all day long!!  I’m really loving it!

Thank you so much to everyone who has encouraged, supported and indulged me these last two weeks.  I honestly didn’t know if I could make it this far in the first place.  Now I am ready to put two more weeks behind me as well instead.  Then they can make a rehab movie about me and instead of Sandra Bullock, I’d get Kerry Washington to play me!  LOL





What oh What Have I Been Up To???

1 02 2011

Like I said yesterday, I have made some big decisions lately.  You see, here’s the deal, I quit smoking for mostly financial reasons.  I wanted to save $2000 and I thought I could use my cigarette money to do that.  However, what I realized was that was very short sighted.  First of all because my health and the health of my daughter should be my first priority for quitting smoking and second because I waste way more money than just $150 a month on smokes.  I realized that in order to achieve my 2011 financial goals, I am going to have to take a broader approach and do more than just cut out lunch money and cigarettes from my budget. Read the rest of this entry »





Approaching One Full Day Smoke Free…

25 01 2011

…And no one had to remind me not to make anyone else miserable!  I can’t believe that I made it.  It was hard and not hard at the same time.  I think the thing that most stands out to me is the amazing support that I received today from this blog to Youtube to my co-workers.  I am so grateful to everyone who took the time to give me an encouraging word or a nudge back in the right direction when I was struggling.

One thing that I noticed a lot today is that my brain is seriously trained to smoke at specific times.  I could literally set my watch by my cravings!  It really creeps me out to really think about it.  I am truly an addict and I will always be in recovery from cigarettes.

I have decided that I am going to do a video journal about quitting so that I don’t bog the blog down with quitting updates, but I will keep you all informed on here from time to time as I reach milestones as well.  This is my first entry.

Just so you know, I did call my job and pick up for tomorrow.  So I am in for 8 days in a row but it’s worth it to get paid to not smoke right?  LOL I’m just glad there is enough work for me to be able to pick up a shift.  As far as this evening is going, I must say that I haven’t been having that much difficulty.  I am about to fix dinner now so we’ll see how I feel afterward, but right now, I find myself on a pleasantly even keel.  I’m going to try to ride this one out till bedtime.  Wish me luck! LOL





I’m Quitting Smoking Today!

24 01 2011

Well I think that today is the day.  The day that I quit smoking!  Not sure how I feel about it really.  I was just thinking how I am tired of having to “save” money during my tight times to buy cigarettes.  Then last night I watched this video on YT about the total Money Makeover.

It honestly got me to thinking.  Seriously, if I quit smoking and stopped having lunch at work everyday, I could save $250 a month right there.  Then I started thinking about all the other ways I could add to the pot.  I could make a menu plan and stick to it.  That eliminates two people  going out to eat 3-5 nights a week.  I consider myself a recovering compulsive shopper.  Right now, I am NOT in shopping mode.  I even passed up the WEN sale on QVC this weekend!  LOL  Honestly though that was just because I was saving money for smokes this week…pathetic I know.

So anyway, I am really really nervous and not looking forward at all to the cravings and the mood swings.  I just have to remember that I can’t treat people like crap just because I’m having a nicotene fit!  Anyone who works with me, please feel to remind me of that tomorrow and the next few days in the most loving and caring way you can imagine (insert smile here.)

Now I gotta get into the gym and see what this 38-year old machine called my body can really do!  The nerd in me wishes I could have a full pulmonary function test done now and in 6 months from now to see how I have changed.  I just don’t want to have to pay for them! LOL

So I am reaching out to you all for support!  Please help me hold myself accountable.  I know I can do it, it’s just really hard in the beginning.